Today – April 27, 2019


‘Nuff said.


Recurring Dream, Recurring Theme

Dreaming of crowds - grayscaleTypically the way it works on a nightly basis is: despite the vivid experience of dreaming, the specific details of dreams tend to fade rather quickly upon waking. However, in spite of that fade away there tends to at least be some residue of the general theme or primary emotion experienced during the slumber.

For me, for as long as I can remember, the general recurring theme has been about connection & disconnection. Gatherings and un-gatherings. The progression seems to be:

  • A gathering of familiar and unfamiliar people (i.e. a crowd).
  • A separation from that gathering.
  • A journey of some sort, often alone.
  • Abandonment – a sense of separation and loss is prevalent throughout, sometimes causing emotional stress.
  • Reconciliation – the ultimate goal is to return, reunite and reconnect with familiar people and place (belonging). This, however, is not always a successful goal.

This is the ongoing series I deal with on a nightly basis without fail. It’s not always a disturbing experience as it’s happening, but when it is disturbing I tend to recollect that aspect upon waking.

I’ve long wanted to indulge in dream analysis therapy and have someone of a  psychological profession help interpret my dreams, or at least the residue of them. But even without that I know that at my core the fear of abandonment has always been there. Why? I can’t be sure, but they say these things tend to be the result of a traumatic experience at a young age. So perhaps mine is due to getting lost at an amusement park (King’s Island in Ohio) at age six just as the place was closing and everyone was leaving. A traumatic experience for a child at that age, so far from home and faced with the unknown.

I also know that at my core I’m all about making and preserving connections to people. And, like most, I’ve dealt with more than my share of disconnections, regrettably. So I know that sense of loss is inherent to the proceedings.

Given all that, I’m inclined to believe this recurring theme will always be a part of my nightly dreaming.


Today – April 24, 2019

Mont Blanc in Lac Blanc, Chamonix, France – by Simon Fitall

Mountains have done more than I have today. Took the day off work to recuperate after an exciting night of live music, good friends and good times. Old bones need that extra recovery time. It wasn’t until two in the afternoon that I managed to shower, leave my bedroom and actually feed myself. Tomorrow it’s back to the regularly scheduled program of the daily grind. Woe is me.


Death Angel & Man Eating Giant at BCBC in Indianapolis

Above are just a few photos from our Tuesday night of which the highlight was the Death Angel show (w/ special guests Mothership, Photian Schism and Man Eating Giant) at the Black Circle Brewing Co. in Indianapolis, IN that I attended with my lifelong best friend and brother (from another mother) Joshua Hooten.

The photos, clockwise:

  • The Death Angel U.S. Tour t-shirt I bought from the band’s merch table (the back also has a design along with the U.S. Tour itinerary. Also a guitar pick and drum stick personally handed to me by lead guitarist Rob Cavestany and drummer Will Carroll, respectively.
  • Man Eating Giant (MEG) logo t-shirt from their merch table, where I also nabbed a 3-song CD and a drink koozie.
  • A pic of Josh and just prior to Death Angel’s face-melting set to a packed house.
  • Pacos Taqueria where Josh and I dined. I got the asada quesadilla which was delish and came with creamy sour cream, cilantro-strong pico de gallo and lettuce. I washed it all down with a Sprite.  By the way, their tomatillo green salsa verde was one of the best I’ve ever had. I introduced it to Josh who tried it with blind faith (saying I’ve never lied to him) and he dug it as well.

It was great being front-to-the-left to witness one of my guitar heroes nuke my brain with is ridiculous riffing and scintillating solos. The whole band was very tight and precise.

Death Angel is a pioneering American thrash metal band from the San Francisco/Oakland, California Bay Area, formed in 1982. We discovered them around 1988 on their sophomore album Frolic Through the Park.

Death Angel


Today – April 22, 2019

wp-1489491495494.jpegToday was not a good day for this writer. Mondays are like that, though. I tend to look for distractions after the first day back to work. Of course, art junkie and info junkie tendencies don’t help the cause either. I’ll do better on Wednesday since I’ll have the day off. G’night.


Bookworm – Paper Girls and Skyward

Paper Girls – Vol. 5 from Image Comics (Buy)
Skyward – Vol. 2 from Image Comics (Buy)

Today – April 20, 2019


Old man blues today. Headache and sore hip. I am a middle-aged man hoping there isn’t a hip replacement in my future. However, I do totally expect a head replacement someday.